The Reality Of Being Genuine. It Is Not Fun Nor Funny. Strength & Power? Yes! That’s What It Takes.
Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Friday, December 30, 2016 at 6:32 pm
I am exhausted. Been re-arranging again. The glare in my computer screen prevented me to read it. I had to do something. It’s working for now. Will record when I wake up next. I slept until around 3 am but, had to clean up.
Saturday, December 31, 2016 at 9:16 am
Just now I finished all chores. I spent a very restless night. I was not feeling well. I have been indulging eating things not in benefit for my health. Eating has become a problem. For everywhere I turn eating is the welcome thing in the world. Unfortunately for me, I cannot eat what the world has to offer without suffering the consequences.
One more hurdle to overcome. Fortunately, You have overcome the world for me. So I sense power to fast to detox my body. Then, I know You will empower me to overcome the eating hurdle without stumbling anybody. What am I talking about?
I am talking about being genuine. It is really easy to use other people’s customs & hospitable ways to indulge ourselves. Sweets are the welcome sign of love everywhere in the world. Sweets as well as traditional food. I love & pride myself in enjoying the welcome from the locals. I also love sweets. So? I indulge seemingly to be polite.
The truth? It is not about ‘polite’. Sweets or sugar are for me an addiction. I know sweets or sugar is the worst poison for our bodies, but! Once I have one sweet is like nonstop sweets. It is confusing to others. One day I am super healthy preacher with the do & don’t eat this or that. Next day? I am behaving like a veritable glutton.
This time? I know You are taken care of this addiction of mine for good. What makes me so sure?
O my Father—O Father of mine? There is no ending to the ways You lead & teach me all things for my benefit and the benefit of others. Thus, I am sure this time this addiction of mine will be no more! For You are in control of every minute detail of my doings. You quicken me on the spot what I need to do. I am to fast for the ten days that take to detox my body.
I know by past experience, the tremendous benefits of fasting not only for health but also to cast out the demons that get a hold of our bodies at the drop of a hat but! I also know it is not the actual fast that matters. What matters is one’s motives. Am I fasting only to please my ego? Am I fasting only to show off? Or, am I fasting under the leading & power of Your Set-Apart Spirit for nobler reasons other than just to please my egoic nature? That’s the gist of the matter.
Saturday, December 31, 2016 at 11:31 am
Thanks, my Father! O my Father—O Father of mine? I am already feeling better. Just to know You are in control of my being and my life makes a world of difference. What it means to be present?
Saturday, December 31, 2016 at 10:12 pm
The question at 11:31 am. The answer not until I was settling in under my covers around 10 pm. What was I musing as I got under my covers? Musing about the world’s New Year’s upheaval. Thinking about my past consumed in that world’s affair. Musing. Beginning with exuberant claims for a new future better than the present. Ending with the answer to my question, What it means to be present?
Ha! The remembrance of those empty days of folly came. My gratitude for my present days of wisdom remains steady. I concluded, “You are my portion. You are my Present, Past, and Future. I live in the Present in Your Presence. No need for empty celebrations to satisfy the lusts of the flesh. Constant celebration. Joy inexplicable. Future & past have all faded fast. Present in Your Presence is the reality of my now life. Yes, 2017 is here for me presently. It’s a new life that has already begun! O yes! I can now get back under my covers. I can now rest underneath the everlasting arms!
Sunday, January 1, 2017at 2:43 am
O my Father—O Father of mine? Present in Your Presence I can now breathe and live. The future or the past have all faded fast. A new year has begun. The new beginning. New life platform You have designed for me. Not a wishful thought but! Hope for the sure things not yet seen by any human being.
I am on top of Your mountain enjoying Your Presence. Whether is gloom or glee in the midst of me? Let it be it does not concern or affect me but! You? You are working it altogether to restore Your children to the original state of their creation.
Sunday, January 1, 2017 at 12:35 pm
O my Father—O Father of mine? Musing. The reality of being genuine. It is not fun nor funny. Strength & power? Yes! That’s what it takes. You know it my Father. Three days ago I put up several questions to You: “Father, is it time for me to go? Where am I to go my Father? The dreadful time is at the door for what is happening with the kings of this earth. Their aim to destroy Jerusalem is about to flourish. There is only one way out. Repentance. Otherwise? I tremble for all unrepentant ones.
Father, O my Father—O Father of mine? Three days ago I was imagining all kinds of evil about Ahmad’s absence. Today, I am not imagining. Today is the first day of the year 2017 accordingly to this world’s calendar. I am musing not imagining. Deep in thought in all You are & have been doing in my life. Even so, sadness invades my being. I wish I could cry.
No, I am not depressed. I am not angry nor disgusted. You know that my Father. Only on this especial day for people in general, I sense in my heart a deep sadness. A sadness too deep to describe. I am sensing Your sadness. Why not? Why not?
Just to muse about all happenings between 1985—2007—2016 makes me sober. Nine years in this region of the world. Thirty one years altogether since You began my transformation. Everything has been recorded. Numerous souls touched by those records. My children and close friends remain un-touched. Not unlike Your children and chosen ones.
Even so, though You shed tears as You move me to do myself, there is hope. There is always hope. Why? Because, though You shed tears to see Your children happily marching to their inevitable doom…Behold! Your power of love from on high.
Your power of love from on high keeps & sustains me. No matter what? No matter who? I will sit still and wait for Your deliverance as per Your instructions. Psalms 37, Psalms 46:9-11, and 2 Chronicles 20:17 tells me exactly what it is; what will be; and who am I?
I am aware of the wisdom of human kind. The wise man (the philosopher). The scribe (the scholar). The investigator (the logician, the debater) of this present time and age. They claim there is no heaven or hell or Satan. No right or wrong. No need to look up to the Creator. No mention of the Ten Words written in stones. Though they quote selected Scriptures to prove their teachings, they do not believe the Scriptures.
Of course, the Scriptures cannot be understood by the human mind but! For the most, all religions do not believe that. For the most they consider ‘Knowledge” to be essential. For the most knowledge, understanding or the human mind are the key to live by. Thus, they do what seems good to each individual or to their peers as per their own individual understanding.
Has not the Almighty shown up the nonsense and the folly of this world’s wisdom? Over & over we see the proof of our Father/Creator’s unfathomable wisdom to no avail. So far, I have been quoting the Scriptures as I am led to expose these matters but, perhaps to link the Scriptural references spoken & engraved in my being by the power of love from on high is a better way. Psalms 37 Psalms 46 and 2 Chronicles 20 Be still
To conclude, What it means to be present?
Ha! The remembrance of those empty days of folly came. My gratitude for my present days of wisdom remains steady. I concluded, “You are my portion. You are my Present, Past, and Future. I live in the Present in Your Presence. No need for empty celebrations to satisfy the lusts of the flesh.
Constant celebration. Joy inexplicable. Future & past have all faded fast. To Be Present? Quit My Obsession To Look Good! Genuine Better Than Good. Genuine Equals Perfect. Present in Your Presence is the reality of my now life.
Yes, 2017 is here for me presently. It’s a new life that has already begun! O yes! I can now forever rest underneath the everlasting arms!
Therefore, I am free from all worries & concerns of this world’s affairs. I will now publish these musings. I know this is the right time. His time for me to post.
His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.